The Chaos That He Makes Beautiful
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Thoughts on my heart and mind
“I, the Teacher, was king of Israel, and I lived in Jerusalem. I devoted myself to search for understanding and to explore by wisdom everything being done under heaven. I soon discovered that God has dealt a tragic existence to the human race. I observed everything going on under the sun, and really, it is all meaningless—like chasing the wind. What is wrong cannot be made right. What is missing cannot be recovered. I said to myself, “Look, I am wiser than any of the kings who ruled in Jerusalem before me. I have greater wisdom and knowledge than any of them.” So I set out to learn everything from wisdom to madness and folly. But I learned firsthand that pursuing all this is like chasing the wind. The greater my wisdom, the greater my grief. To increase knowledge only increases sorrow.”
Looking back on the last several years, I realize that I have been grasping at the wind…chasing knowledge, prestige, and satisfaction all while I am waiting for my life of ministry to start, while waiting for God to give me someone to follow into this ministerial life.
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Intentionality
Third thing that I am learning is that I must have time to rest and refresh. God truly knew His people when He gave them the command to have a Sabbath. It is so easy at home and here to always go go go because there is ALWAYS something more to do. Realizing that I must rest and have time to renew in Him but also knowing how to balance everything that must be done is challenge. Again it goes back to being strategic with my time in praying for the people in my life, valuing the gospel by intentionally sharing it, and carving out daily time to rest in the Word and weekly time to rest in body and spirit.
While these are not new things the Lord has been speaking to me about, it has been a good time of self reflection and evaluation on what do I really value. Pray for me this week in my busyness that I would be faithful in obedience as the things the Lord is revealing about things about my heart and my sin tendencies.
Blessings and Peace to you all.
Catherine
Thursday, June 14, 2012
8 Days In
While last week seemed to be go by slowly, this week has flown by. Most of my time outside of class time is spent reading, doing homework, or writing up summaries. I am taking 4 classes which I am really enjoying. I have learned SO much that if you told me before I came up here what I would know how to do after just 8 classes I probably wouldn't have believed you!
My classes are:
(1) Morphology and Syntax 1
(2) Sign Language Phonetics
(3) Sociolinguistics
(4) Second Language Acquisition with a lab where I am learning Colombian Sign Language!
My days are pretty packed full...first class is at 8am and I have classes until 11, chapel is 11:10-11:50, lunch, then classes from 1-2 and 3-4. On top of that I have some meeting and my work assignment, so all the free time I have is mostly on homework. On top of learning some really cool things I have also met some really awesome people. It is really cool to be around so many linguistics and missions minded people. Most of the students here have either been on the field already, or training to be on the field, and as far as I can tell all of the professors have spent significant amount of time on the field with many different types of langu/cultural groups. I have been able to have such great conversations with people gleaning from their experiences. My roommate has been a missionary overseas since 2007, I met a someone who is working with a Biblical translations team for the Deaf in Kenya, one of my professors was a missionary and language surveyor with the Deaf in Spain, and I have also had an encouraging conversation with a Deaf translator with Wycliffe about how to teach the Deaf to study the Word of God. I honestly can't believe I have gained so much in such a short amount of time here at SIL. So many more things I want to type about, but unfortunately I have a list of things to get done tonight. Miss all of you back home, and feel free to text or call any time. If I don't answer I will get back to you!
Oh, and did I say that the weather this week has been much nicer than last week! My dorm room which is on the 3rd floor does not have AC, and it was in the 90s last week. This week however the highs have been in the 50s - mid 70s...which is a lot more comfortable without AC! Here is a Picture of my dorm room.
Well, I will blog again soon, but in the meantime check out the PDF of this newsletter about Wycliffe's partnerships and their work with the Deaf.
Word Alive: Deaf Around the World
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
So here it goes. As many of you know the Lord has given me the desire, passion, and skill to work with the Deaf. Over the last couple of years the Lord has really opened my eyes to the global Deaf community, the lack of gospel influence within the Deaf Community, and the importance of the Word of God to all believers. As the Lord has been gracious in continuing to open my eyes to things I was previously blind to, my mind and heart has stirred with many questions about how can the Deaf know Jesus if the Word is not in their heart language? How can translated stories serve as making effective disciples of Jesus if there is no context within to define abstract concepts? or Even if there is a full Bible translation in a Deaf persons heart language how do you teach them to study a visual language inductively? These are just some of the questions that have been on my heart and mind the last year or so. As I have contemplated these things, I have sought out people to ask, as well as places to train. In my research and through various people I have spoken with I came across a program called Summer Institute of Linguistics (SIL) which works closely with Wycliffe Bible Translators. Many students who go through SIL want to be on the field as Bible Translators. As I continued to do research I found out that they have special courses which focus on Deafness and the linguistic features of sign languages from around the world. The neat thing about this program is that even though many people here want to work in Biblical Translations, it is really just a linguistics program and also attracts people of other faiths and backgrounds to learn more about linguistics. I am excited about the classes that I am taking because I know that it will not only push me more towards things I want to be doing in the future, but also will benefit me in my current job as an interpreter going between spoken English and American Sign Language on a regular basis. I don't really know where the Lord will be leading me the next few years, but I do feel like this training and networking opportunity will be a catalyst towards where ever I end up being.
I will be posting here through out the summer as an update on what's going on and how everything is going. On a side note, my dorm room here does not have AC and I'm on the 3rd floor (heat rises)! I swear I have sweated more here than I ever do in Texas! Definitely not as cool here as I was expecting!
Will be posting more soon! :-)
If you are interested in learning more about SIL and what it offers here is the link to their website.
http://arts-sciences.und.edu/summer-institute-of-linguistics/index.cfm
Sunday, November 28, 2010
This Year
Well first of all in February I gave into God's calling to go to Africa on a mission trip with my church and E3 Partners. I had been feeling that I was suppose to go for a few months, and even a weirder feeling that I was suppose to stay, but since I had NEVER wanted to do that I stayed open to the idea, but assumed that I would not go much less want to stay. Well I finally signed up to go on 2 trips which would last May 5-May 28th. As I fundraised I was amazed and blessed when people gave...God provided the $5000 required to go on the day it was due. I was even able to take the days off I needed from work. God worked it all out so there was no question in my mind I was suppose to go. I still thought in my mind that I would have a hard time being in another country and would be ready to go home after just a few days. Finally came the day we were leaving. After the two 9 hour flights (one from DFW to Amsterdam, then Amsterdam to Kilamangaro) I was finally in Africa. As soon as I got off the plane on to the runway I expected to have culture shock and be ready to go home, but surprisingly I didn't. We had arrived after dark, so we then piled in a bus with all of our luggage and drove about 1 hour to where we would stay the night...still nothing.
The next day as I looked out the window of our hotel to see the city we had stayed in that night in the light,
I had a strange feeling...not of culture shock, or of being home sick like I expected...I couldn't even explain the feeling...except for PEACE...I knew this was where God wanted me to be. That morning we drove to buy Bibles written in Swahili we would use at our mission points. So we all piled back into the bus...as we drove my soul took in the sights of a people group that I would come to love.
We drove about another 2-3 hours to the city of Karatu, where we would end up staying for the next week. As we drove I kept trying to figure out how I felt in the place I was. I still couldn't put my finger on how I felt...then as I spent my time looking out across the beautiful land...
I felt at home...this alone should have caused me to panic, but it didn't...I just remember the overwhelming peace of being in God's will.
When we finally arrived to Karatu the plans we had for that week completely changed. We were supposed to be camping among the Masai people and planting churches among nomadic tribes, but we had not yet received permission to do so by the government officials. So instead of working with the Masai, we worked with mission points in the area of Karatu where we were.
The next day I went out with my mission partner who happens to also be my singles pastor or as you say in Swahili my mchungaji. We got in the bus with a bunch of other people and after about 2-3 hours of insanely bumpy driving we arrived at the church we would work with that week.
It was humbling just to see where these people met for worship. After a round of introductions, and me figuring out how to go to the bathroom in Africa, we were on our way. We spent our days walking from hut to hut sharing the gospel.People were very receptive and listen to what we had to say....
While all listened not all received, and at times it was hard because it felt like nothing was being done, but when I felt this I remember the Holy Spirit reassuring me, and telling me to just Trust and Obey. Just when I would be ready to stop, I would share and someone would receive and be saved.
We walked a lot, so we only went to like 4-5 huts per day, but many came to know Christ. This is a picture of one of the pastors and some of the women in the church. They were gracious enough to feed us everyday.
This grieves me...Does it grieve your heart?
What are you going to do about it?? Let this change you.
Don't forget...Jesus said in Matthew 25:
31“But when the Son of Man comes in His glory, and all the angels with Him, then He will sit on His glorious throne. 32“All the nations will be gathered before Him; and He will separate them from one another, as the shepherd separates the sheep from the goats; 33and He will put the sheep on His right, and the goats on the left.
34“Then the King will say to those on His right, ‘Come, you who are blessed of My Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world. 35‘For I was hungry, and you gave Me something to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me something to drink; I was a stranger, and you invited Me in; 36naked, and you clothed Me; I was sick, and you visited Me; I was in prison, and you came to Me.’ 37“Then the righteous will answer Him, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, and feed You, or thirsty, and give You something to drink? 38‘And when did we see You a stranger, and invite You in, or naked, and clothe You? 39‘When did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ 40“The King will answer and say to them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me.’
41“Then He will also say to those on His left, ‘Depart from Me, accursed ones, into the eternal fire which has been prepared for the devil and his angels; 42for I was hungry, and you gave Me nothing to eat; I was thirsty, and you gave Me nothing to drink; 43I was a stranger, and you did not invite Me in; naked, and you did not clothe Me; sick, and in prison, and you did not visit Me.’ 44“Then they themselves also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry, or thirsty, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not take care of You?’ 45“Then He will answer them, ‘Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to Me.’ 46“These will go away into eternal punishment, but the righteous into eternal life.”
Will you feed and cloth Him? Will you invite Him in and give Him a drink?
Friday, February 19, 2010
Rollercoaster
I also have noticed, really just today that writing is a great comfort to me. It is a time I can just get it all out. All I am feeling can be put into words, and somehow when I do that it no longer seems impossible. I have never thought of myself as a writer, but I want to share sometime that I wrote today. It encompasses most of the things that I am dealing with.
Control
In and out, out and in.
Up and down, Round and round I go, trying to satisfy the cravings within.
Alone? No not alone, people surround.
Alone? Yes alone, people surround.
Turn away, being chased,
"Keep running, you'll get away..." is the voice I hear.
Running, Breathing, Tired.
"Keep going, you CAN do it!!" someone screams to me, "If you can't do it, then who can?"
Easy words to believe.
Struggling for breath I decide to go on, alone.
running, panting, thirsting....colapsing to the ground.
Feeling defeat I look up to the sky...
A rainbow I see. A promise of God to never again destroy the earth with a flood.
A promise of control I see.
Many days and nights I ran to find peace, to find escape from another's control.
As I fall it is true freedom I see, in His unending love.
Now I see, all the time I ran, to find what I needed...all I needed to do was fall.
Alone? no, not alone...me and and the Holy Trinity together for all eternity.